Now for me this was a truly personal episode because I know Rachel's heartache. My high school sweetheart committed suicide in 2009. He did it on the two anniversary of our breakup. It was devastating for me. I had loved him since I was 15. I am 27 now. I didn't know how to respond, I fell apart and spiraled out of control. I still have days where I feel lost. I mean honestly how do you get over losing someone, especially someone you love. He and I had broken up, bur we talked almost everyday. I spent most of my time telling him if he was willing to go to therapy with me I would be willing to start over and him telling me no.
I am lucky to have someone in my life who understands my brokeness and is there for me now.