"The QuarterBack" Glee's Goodbye Finn and My personal experiences.

So most people who follow entertainment know that Cory Montieth who played Finn on Glee died last month of a heroin overdose. I know this doesn't have much to do with makeup, but it has to do with something I love and I write about non makeup things all the time. I kept telling myself I would watch it when I get caught up on Glee(I'm behind because Mr. Kitty hasn't wanted to watch and we were watching it together, so I am behind, along with quite a few other shows Im really annoyed at being behind on). But I knew if I did that I might never get caught up on Glee because I would push it off forever. Since the episode doesn't follow story because it is a tribute episode I decided last night to bite the bullet and watch it. The opening number was Seasons of Love and from that moment I balled my eyes out.

Now for me this was a truly personal episode because I know Rachel's heartache. My high school sweetheart committed suicide in 2009. He did it on the two anniversary of our breakup. It was devastating for me. I had loved him since I was 15. I am 27 now. I didn't know how to respond, I fell apart and spiraled out of control. I still have days where I feel lost. I mean honestly how do you get over losing someone, especially someone you love. He and I had broken up, bur we talked almost everyday. I spent most of my time telling him if he was willing to go to therapy with me I would be willing to start over and him telling me no.

I am lucky to have someone in my life who understands my brokeness and is there for me now.